Valerie Rayne’s Smoking Confession #1.5

After my post, Valerie Rayne’s Smoking Confession #1, I was sent a message from a follower who really liked the post. They were curious how long it took for the ashtray to go from empty to full, so I decided to spend the day tracking the journey of my ashtray. Consider this the continuation of my ashtray confession!


1:00 PM – Just Woke Up

I wake up, usually in the early afternoon,  and the very first thing I do is empty the never washed ashtray. This thing is absolutely coated in a thick layer of ash and is permanently grayed because of it.

2:00 PM – Coffee Almost Done

It takes me about an hour to fully wake up. I enjoy my coffee from Tim Hortons (I’ll take an extra large triple triple, please) while chainsmoking to get into the day. While it looks like I smoke a lot (and I do), you have to remember that I share each of these smokes, so I’m really only smoking half of a cigarette each time.

11:00 PM – Starting to Quiet Down

The day goes on and I smoke and smoke, filling my ashtray to the brim. Most of my days are spent smoking and working on content – editing videos, uploading pictures, coming up with captions or writing posts like the ones you see here. Around 11, the house starts quieting down and The Boyfriend and I get to spend some time cuddling and watching our favorite shows.

3:00 AM – Bedtime… Finally!

We try really hard to go to bed around 3, although we’re often up until 4 or 5, especially if we decide to have sex that night. By the time we go to bed, the ashtray is well and truly full. It’s often a struggle to put the smoke out by this point. You’ll also notice the table around the ashtray gets ashy as time goes on. That gets cleaned up every morning when the ashtray gets emptied.


So, there you have it, I have thoroughly confessed my ashtray sins!

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Valerie Rayne’s Smoking Confession #1

Forgive me friends, for I have sinned…

My Mom, a fellow smoker, has always been disgusted by my worst smoking habit. She scoffs every time she witnesses it and I have gotten more than a few lectures. Just writing this confession, I am slightly embarrassed to admit this smoking faux pas!

I only have one ashtray and I never wash it…

It’s a large black plastic ashtray and I will fill it to the brim with cigarettes smoked to the filter. It almost never moves from its spot on my coffee table and only gets emptied once a day before being put back in its spot. It hasn’t been washed in years!

Don’t judge me…

I wish I was the type of person to have a series of small ashtrays. Cute ashtrays that somehow fit my non-existent aesthetic. I wish I would empty it after five or six smokes. I wish I washed it and used a second ashtray while it dried. I wish when other smokers came over, we didn’t all have to huddle around the one ashtray.

It has always been this way. I’ve always only had one ashtray, this ashtray. I don’t wash it because then I’d have to wait for it to dry before I could smoke a cigarette and that is just not conducive to my habit. Some days, I will empty it before it’s full but most days, it doesn’t even occur to me to empty it until I’m struggling to put smokes out.

It is honestly one of the worst things about me and smoking…